With the image of the 12 Steps in mind, I decided to look more closely at them in relation to the end of the world as we know it (TEOTWAWKI) and notice how they might in fact be useful not only for recovering from addiction, but for navigating Armageddon. At first I felt shy about applying the Steps to the collapse of civilization, thinking that my readers would think I had seriously gone around the bend, but then someone sent me the "12 Steps Of Peak Oil" from a Vancouver newspaper. At that point, I realized how relevant the Steps might be not only to Peak Oil, but to Peak Civilization itself. Seasoned 12 Steppers argue that despite their 1930s origin,
the Steps are applicable to any situation-no matter how monumental, and the collapse of civilization is about as big as it gets. So let's take a closer look.
Step 1: We admitted we were powerless - that our lives had become unmanageable.
Step 1 requires that I admit my
powerlessness over the situation with which I'm confronted. Maybe
you're thinking, "Well hey, that's no problem-did I ask for this
debacle? All those years that I was an upstanding citizen and voted in
elections and had faith in the American dream? What was that for? I did
all the right things and now we're looking at Armageddon. Of course, I know that I'm powerless."
But that's not exactly what I mean
by admitting that one is powerless. Many of us are stockpiling food,
learning skills, busily relocating to other parts of the country or
world, investing in precious metals, and so much more, but let's not
forget that no matter how much we prepare, we're ultimately powerless
over the outcome. While we may know that intellectually, letting it
sink into the gut is a whole different story.
Powerless means that we don't know
the outcome and can't control it, and that's really scary. I mean what
it really all comes down to is the "D" word, you know: Death. And even
if we end up celebrating a 100th birthday eating soy
cupcakes with our friends in some groovy ecovillage, collapse means
that we'll be encountering many more endings than we can now imagine,
beginning with the end of our current way of life no matter how small
our footprint may be.
Control freaks won't do well with
TEOTWAWKI; flexibility, on the other hand, is an essential attribute
for survival. No matter how "manageable" our lives might be in the
current moment, the collapse of empire is certain to challenge that and
will compel us to align with others, give and receive support, trust
our intuition as well as our intellect, and be willing to adapt to
ever-changing circumstances. As a 12 Stepper might say, true
empowerment lies in admitting one's powerlessness.
Step 2: Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
People entering recovery often have
a terrible time with this one. First of all, they feel they might have
to buy into all that God stuff, but worse, they feel as if in order to
recover, they have to admit that they are insane.
Let me hasten to emphasize that I
too recoil at the use of the word "God" and wish to define "power
greater than ourselves" as broadly as possible. Over the decades,
countless atheists have benefited from using the 12 Steps for addiction
recovery precisely because they were able to do the same. Atheists,
agnostics, and feminists will have a much easier time with the Steps if
they widen their concept of Higher Power to something non-theistic and
gender-neutral.
"Insanity" as the Steps define it
simply means that one does not recognize anything larger or more
significant than one's own ego. Simply put, "something greater" could
be one's concept of nature or one's confidence in the human spirit or
anything else that one considers more benevolently powerful than
oneself.
The 12 Steps inherently fly in the
face of the ethics of civilization, based as those values are on the
supremacy of the human ego-a pre-eminence that consciously or
unconsciously deifies itself and whatever material gain it can amass
unto itself at the expense of everyone and everything else. Now what
could be more insane than that, and isn't everyone reading these words
interested in transforming that paradigm into something more
compassionate and sustainable? 12 Step programs further define insanity
as doing the same thing that doesn't work over and over again, each
time expecting different results. I can think of myriad examples of
this in the culture of empire, starting with, "Maybe this time, if we
just elect the right candidate for president then...."
12 Stepping into Armageddon begins
with thoroughly examining how the culture of empire has inculcated us
on every level and in every aspect of our lives. It means understanding
how empire has programmed us to believe that we are all-powerful and
that if we just do all the right things, we will succeed because our
ego needs are the raison d'etre for our existence. When we are
unable to recognize our powerlessness and resist acknowledging
something greater than ourselves, we also rebel against the limits that
life on this planet demand of us. We walk around as little "gods" and
"goddesses" believing that we can consume whatever we like whenever we
like at the expense of all other species as well as our own.
Step 3: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to that power.
OK, breathe. Remember-you don't have to use the word "God", and this Higher Power thing is gender-neutral.
This Step is particularly
challenging because it requires action. Steps 1 and 2 just require me
to admit something, but Step 3 asks me to DO something-something
repugnant to the children of empire. It means I have to surrender my
will to that "something greater". Eeeeeeew!
Step 3 is where the rubber meets
the road-or not. In order to continue with the rest of the Steps, and
therefore recovery, if that's what I'm using them for, or navigating
collapse, as the case may be, I have to defer to a greater wisdom.
What's even more distasteful is that I'm asked to surrender not only my
will but my life.
Well, here we are again back to the
dreaded "D" word. Anyone who has been researching and preparing for
collapse knows the precarious position of the planet and the human
race. If 200 species per day are going extinct, then the bottom line is
that we are all staring our own mortality in the face as never before
in human history. Collapse is, above all, forcing us to confront
our personal mortality and that of our loved ones which is the
principal reason so few are willing to deal with it. Who would
sign up to feel that vulnerable? However, if we can allow that
particular emotion, it becomes more possible to surrender our will and
our life because what else do we have to lose?
The logical progression of the
Steps is simply that since I'm powerless over the outcome, and there is
something greater than my human ego and my five physical senses, it
behooves me to consider abdicating my attempt to control what my finite
humanity cannot. For this reason, I find that Step 3 relinquishes me
from having "hope" because hope is ultimately another attempt to
control what I cannot.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves
So now that I know that my ego
can't manage my life, and I'm willing to surrender the outcome of my
life and the world as I have known it to a power greater than myself, I
have to look more deeply within. If we are using the Steps in relation
to TEOTWAWKI, then a moral inventory could be a somewhat different
experience than if we're applying the steps in relation to an
addiction. Nevertheless, TEOTWAWKI is not unrelated to the addiction
issue. In fact, humanity's addiction to material gain and economic
growth has resulted in a delusional disregard for the earth's limits.
An expression often heard among 12 Steppers is "self-will run riot"
which pretty much summarizes humankind's obliviousness and even
contempt toward the earth community.
But let's define our terms. Inventory
simply means taking stock of what we have and don't have-what we may
need more of or less of. The collapse of empire forces all of us,
whether we consciously intend to or not, to consider our values and
priorities. People losing houses, jobs, having to relocate out of
necessity or by choice, finding that their pensions have suddenly
evaporated or who have lost health insurance are forced to make tough
decision about priorities.
Those of us who have been aware of
collapse for some time and have been preparing for it are faced not
only with making decisions such as the ones mentioned above, but are
also compelled to look more deeply within to notice what qualities we
need to develop in the face of collapse and which ones we may need to
minimize. For example, I grew up as an only child and have lived an
extremely independent life as an adult. I currently find myself working
on reaching out to trusted others, making plans to live in community,
and although fiercely committed to personal space and daily periods of
solitude, consciously forsaking a life that is all about just me and my
needs.
In so doing, I am taken to deeper
layers of Step 4 as I contemplate my own part in the collapse of
civilization. Although I have left a very small footprint on the earth
for most of my life, I must own responsibility for the ways, no matter
how small, in which I've polluted the ecosystem, my disconnection from
the earth community, aspects of personal independence that have
manifested in dysfunction, isolation, arrogance, and rationalization
about my need for interdependent connection. In other words, although
I'm not on the board of Monsanto, I have played a role in violating the
human and more than human worlds.
5. Admitted the exact nature of our wrongs.
Taking a searching and fearless
moral inventory compels us to admit our errors to ourselves, to
something greater, and to someone else. I begin this process by
verbalizing these errors to the power greater than me and then to
whomever or whatever I have harmed.
With respect to TEOTWAWKI, I must
apologize to generations younger than mine for the failure of my
generation to preserve and protect the earth. For example, when
teaching college students about the collapse of civilization and its
repercussions, I'm often confronted with, "Yeah, and it's your fault
and the fault of your generation." Without the slightest hesitation, I
wholeheartedly agree, and I tell them that I am genuinely sorry. I also
point out that collapse has built up over a period of centuries and
that inherent within the values of civilization were the seeds of its
own demise. Nevertheless, I have made choices in my lifetime that
reinforced those values.
6. Were entirely ready to have all these defects of character removed.
Defects of character? What is this?
It's easy to become defensive
around this Step unless one takes it to the next level. I define
"defects of character" as those aspects of my personality that have
resulted from the programming of empire, or my wounds, if you will.
These are the qualities that I have taken on while growing up in empire
culture which mitigate against the earth community and my connection
with it. I'm very ready to have those removed, but I'm also aware that
that means I may need to change my lifestyle, perhaps in drastic ways.
Speaking only for myself, I need to look at my appetite for meat (which
I've almost extinguished); my tendency to think of my own needs first
even when I know I shouldn't; my workaholism, which although greatly
diminished in recent years is not entirely absent; my tendency to
isolate; my quickness to judge others-the list goes on and on. None of
these qualities will be useful as collapse accelerates, and I am
working to transform their presence in my life which the next Step
facilitates.
7. Humbly asked for the shortcomings to be removed
Now I'm back to Step 3 and my
relationship with "something greater". Because I've surrendered the
outcome to it, I can also surrender my character defects and ask them
to be transformed-a word that I personally prefer over "removed" since
I have come to believe that no part of me can ever be totally removed.
Like energy, parts of myself can be transformed but never made to
disappear.
8. Made a list of all we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
While Steps 4 through 7 are about
oneself, Steps 8, 9, and 10 are relational. Step 8 asks me to notice
carefully who has been harmed by my empire-inflicted wounds. This
definitely does not apply exclusively to people. Without meaning to,
I've harmed animals, birds, trees, soil, water, air-myriad members of
the earth community, and I need to reflect on that. In fact, even after
learning about collapse and how I need to live differently, I have not
changed my behavior to the extent that I want and need to. Step 8 is
about willingness and paying attention.
9. Made direct amends wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
So now that I'm willing to make
amends, I must do so. Certainly I must make amends to the people in my
life that I've harmed, but just as important are those members of the
more than human world that I've overlooked, minimized, disregarded, or
just simply didn't notice. Just as a 9th Step may require me
to sit down with another human whom I've harmed and make amends, it may
also require me to spend a day in the forest, or somewhere else in
nature, expressing my regrets to trees, insects, streams, birds, or
other non-humans for my obliviousness to them and the countless
services they perform in the ecosytem from which I benefit.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
So Steps 6-9 are not one-shot
deals. I am asked to practice them repeatedly. Inventory-taking is
forever because what I have or don't have constantly changes, and it's
important that I use both the "glass half empty" and "glass half full"
approaches to my evolution. Just as I cannot successfully navigate
collapse by myself, neither can I practice the Steps in isolation. I
need the entire earth community in order to utilize them effectively.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with something greater
Some readers may recoil at the
words "prayer" and "meditation", but I remind all of us of one of the
key slogans of 12 Step programs which is: "Take what you like and leave
the rest." If you find yourself reacting to "prayer" and "meditation",
don't worry about it. The point of this Step is to improve conscious
contact with something greater, and how we choose to do that is
far less important than that we do it. Armageddon will not be easy to
navigate, but it will be impossible without a conscious, working
connection with a power greater than oneself.
12. Having
had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to
carry this message and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Virtually every person preparing
for collapse has had at least one, if not countless experiences, of
attempting to share research, options, and the realities of collapse
with others, only to find oneself blown off by the other person. Not
unlike the individual addict who must be ready for recovery before
fully applying the Steps, the people with whom we share information
about TEOTWAWKI will either be ready to learn more or they will resist
and maintain their head-in-the-sand posture. So we must be discreet and
respectful, remembering that walking our talk (practicing these
principles in all our affairs) is the most important message we can
carry.
Waking up is an extraordinarily
mixed blessing. With it comes tremendous clarity and joy, as well as
sometimes excruciating sorrow as one witnesses more clearly
civilization's trajectory of self-and-other destruction. Just as
addicts in recovery frequently experience the tragic deaths of other
addicts in their lives who will not engage in the recovery process,
individuals preparing for collapse invariably encounter numerous loved
ones about whom they care deeply who prefer to remain asleep. I feel
sorrow daily for those I know who will probably never open their eyes.
But I have opened mine, and I imagine that most people reading these
words have as well. I carry that and these incredibly practical Steps
with me, alongside a plethora of emotions and wonderfully awake allies,
as each day we journey more deeply into Armageddon.
While I do not feel optimistic
about survival in the abyss into which we appear to be descending, I
believe that the principles inherent in the Steps can facilitate our
planting seeds that may ultimately germinate and flourish as a new
paradigm lived out by some of us and our descendents who are committed
to creating lifeboats of localized, sustainable living that serve the
entire earth community.
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